Today I received good news from a very close friend of mine. Alhamdulillah, Allah is Great. He has exercised His Dominion over his creatures and paved the way for my friend to be closer to His Grace. God works in ways that are indescribable. I mentioned in my previous blog, that I have been doing a great deal of thinking these days. Just earlier today, I was thinking about how lucky I am to be surrounded by nothing but opportunities to follow the Right Path. So far, my workplace does not restrict me from establishing my prayers. My workplace does not restrict me from dressing as a Muslimah should dress. If I should change, there will be no restraints at all. While going through these thoughts, I got to thinking about this friend of mine. What about her? She is not as lucky as I am for her line of work makes it difficult for her to 'solat' five times a day and her attire requires her to be in such a way that cannot conform to her religious duties. By God's grace, when we were having coffee today after Maghrib prayers, Mokhs and I met up with her and she shared with us a piece of good news. She was promoted to a position that not only elevated her from her current position but most importantly, paved the way for her to carry out 'ibadah'. Alhamdulillah! Honestly, I wanted to cry. Cry tears of joy as Abu Bakr did when our Prophet (Peace Be Upon Him) gave him news that he was accompany the Prophet (Peace Be Upon Him) to Al-Madeenah. Masyaallah, what is God trying to show me? Masyaallah! Masyaallah! What other signs do we need? do we really need to see to believe when all God has shown us and guided us...is to simply believe, believe in His Existence, His Promise. All Miracles come from Him. This is indeed a good month for us all!On our way home in the car, as Mokhs was driving, I started to picture myself in the Hijab. I started to think about how I would discard the improper clothes and put on the 'tudung'. I started to think about how I would stand before My Lord and shed tears of shame, of guilt, of resolution, of regret. Yah Allah! I feel myself turning into a different person inside me. Why now? Why? What is God trying to show me? As these thoughts reel through my mind, I could feel myself trembling even after I got out of the car. I was trembling still as I was eating at the table with Mokhs. Oh how I yearn to be stronger than I am right now. How I yearn to completely turn away from my ignorant ways and resign myself to God. But I am weak. Still weak. But by God's Will, I never will give up to strive to repent. God is showing me that my friends around me are striving for the same goal and I am glad that God is not leaving me on my own to do this, to go through this test. It is true, every man's grave is his own. But God is Most Understanding, Most Compassionate. He knows the ways of his creatures and He knows that we often need the encouragement of our families, our friends. He knows that we are not beings created to be in solidority but beings that work best in unity. By Lord, if my friend should one day by God's Will put on the 'tudung', I will be humbled and happy to join in the Right Way with her. Insyaallah, Allah please guide those who are striving to follow Your Way. Guide us...us who have been led astray for so long. Guide us...us who have been so blinded to Your Path. We are so lost without you but with You, we are saved and always protected.
My dear friend, we rejoice with you this day. I am happy for you truly for God is holding you close. Do not give up. Let's join in our sisterhood and pray that we will change to be obedient servants of Our Lord. Insyaallah... .
I thank Allah first and last for without His Mercy, nothing is blessed and nothing is possible.
All praise and thanks be to Allah, My Lord. - Jaslina Yassin
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